A letter to my friend at the end of a year

I thought, for many times, not to mail/contact you for there is no reply to calls since Sept.2 (evening 4.15, that was when I got the last call from you).I know, you might be disturbed a lot due to my over involvement, even into some personal space. I register my sincere appology for crossing the limit, if that is the reason for your silence. I am very much emotional in my personal space and that is being highly reflected when I maintain my relation with whom I had/have some connection which is more than a formal one.I am not sure when you are going to open up your mail and if you do so whether you'll open this particular one or not. I cannot remain in a shade of guilty when my memories haunt me and I want to be truthful to my self to keep myself free of pain. From your point, you may have number of reasons to remain in the manner which you are doing now, which when looked at from my side, may feel like a frozen one. But as we are nearing the closing of one more year with prayers for a new and a more prosperous one, I thought to shed my fear and pain off as you were, and are, not just one among many. If you can read my mail completely and at the end if you feel, not disturbed in my presence I would be happy, as I know you by heart.

Wish you a Happy Birthday
Wish you a Happy X'mas
WIsh you a Happy New Year